Where does that fit in the grand scheme of things?

At the moment I have flu-like symptoms ... Not nice, but nothing I can't handle ... Yet I woke up in the early hours of today (2.30am or there abouts) with a rather strange thought in my head! It went something along the lines of "if you go there you'll never get sick again, its ok to do it, I will help you!" I had a distinct sense of suicide. Not the best thought in the world. But a thought none the less! I said to myself, I'm not that desperate!

I suddenly had the understanding of why some do go there! It is simply an idea planted in their head by something that is nasty! And the pressure applied to them by this nasty being can get excruciating.

I know that others have other reasons, I'm not wanting to get into that. I'm not qualified to go there, nor do I want to! Suicide is a tough and painful thing. Especially for those left behind.

The question I have is, where does it fit in the grand scheme of things? Psalm 139 clearly states that all the days of my life were ordained for me, before one of them came to be. And I know that we have free will. Do we have free will to over-ride the ordained number of days set for us, and depart this life early? Or, is it set that, because God knows the future and the outcome of our decisions, is it that suicide is how some will end their life?

I'm not trying to debate if we loose or gain salvation by going down this road. Only God knows what goes on in a persons head in their last few moments in this life! I'm just wanting to know if it was ordained for some? If that is how they were designed to end?

And for the record, I'm not going there... I tried that once, and God intervened... I figure He has something in mind for me...

Now, I think I might try and go back to sleep!

May Gods blessings shower down upon you. And may you be coated in the dust of your Rabbi!

Is that what God says?

If you are a preacher or a teacher, preach and teach Gods word! Share what God is saying and not what man (or woman) says! Because sooner or later, if its not Gods word, it will be full of lies, wrong contexts and curses!

If you preach Grace, preach it, tempered with Mercy and Repentance.

If you preach the law, preach it, tempered with Grace, Mercy and Repentance.

And above all else, give glory to God! He is the one who gave you a brain to think and a mouth to speak!

Just because it sounds great, doesn't mean that it lines up with Gods word!
Example: when casting out demons - do you send them to "uninhabited places"? If so, where in the bible did Jesus, or anyone else do that? (please tell me, I want to know!)

Does what you are preaching and teaching line up with Gods word? If not - why are you preaching and teaching it?

May Gods blessings shower down upon you. And may you be coated in the dust of your Rabbi!

Neither for nor against...

Recently it was brought to my attention where a guy rocked up to Joshua, and Joshua vowed down to worship (he wasn't stopped, so the assumption is that this guy was God), but Joshua said to him, are you for us or against us!
That is a huge question, especially if thus guy is God!

We know that every time we read about encounters with angels, and someone goes to worship them, the angels stop the worship! But in the case of Joshua, this does not happen... The guy allows the worship! Conclusion, this guy is God! A member of the God head! I'm not going to debate - because I dont know which one!

God answers Joshua - NEITHER! Think of the implications of that one statement - NEITHER! God is neither for is, nor is He against us!

For years I had been taught that God is for me! I have come to the understanding that being with me, is not necessarily being for me! I have to be for God and His will! He is not for my will, UNLESS, my will matches His will! My ideas are not his ideas, my thoughts are not His thoughts... God is not a man, blown around by whatever circumstances come His way! He is the same yesterday, today and forever! He is for Himself!

He won't let anything come my way that I can't handle (with Him)! He is outside my circumstances, whilst being thoroughly knowledgeable, understanding and concerned with my circumstances! He wants my heart to be inline with His, then, I am for Him! Then, I am on His side! I am on the same page as He is, then my plans will work, because they are His plans! Those are the plans He has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me a hope and a future - IF I seek Him with ALL my heart! IF I am wiling to trust Him with my everything!

Wow! (Sorry, this is kinda a new thing for me! I need some time to take this in!)

Things make more sense if I understand at the beginning, that God is neither for nor against me! He won't stand in my way, but if I do something that is displeasing to Him, then He won't support it!

Its funny how one little word can change your perspective and bring clarity!

Neither!

May Gods blessings shower down upon you. And may you be coated in the dust of your Rabbi!

My journey so far!

I'm going to start somewhere in the recent history of me! :)

Before my pastor decided to retire from being a pastor, I started to get a little discontent with my life!

I felt like I was just going to church and not actually being part of it! This lead me to start praying for me and my relationship with God! Little did I know my pastor was going to make his announcement and little did I know what changes lie ahead for me! (Ha ha - isn't it amazing how God works?!)

With the changes in church came opportunities! I started going to the 6am prayer meeting! (I'm a night owl, so getting up that early is a miracle for me!) And strangely, I somehow became the one who runs the 6am prayer meeting! (And in doing this, I feel so far out of my depth it isn't funny!)

Before all this, a particular lady in church kept telling me I had a ministry! Now, me being me, and not really liking the idea of having a ministry (simply because in my time in church the word ministry has been used and abused and no longer meant what it was supposed to mean), I decided I was not having anything to do with a "ministry"! All I wanted to do was serve God in some small invisible way in church!

Anyway, this lady kept telling me that I have this ministry! And the bizarre thing was she seemed to think that I knew what it was! I had no idea, but I didn't tell her that! I just prayed that God would either tell her I wasn't going down that road, or that He would tell me what on earth this ministry thing was!

Its funny how God works, He's slowly been revealing little bits to me and the lady is still telling me I have a ministry!

So, where am I going with this?

A week or so ago, I wrote a blog post (http://australianwatcheronthewall.blogspot.com.au/2013/09/as-vague-as-it-gets.html) because I had this vague idea in my head, but I also had this other thing going on and I really needed some prayer as to what to focus on and what to do!

Another lady prayed and God gave her an answer, to which I gave her an even vaguer answer which was nothing short of confusing! And then a short time later I got a second answer... Thus, I got some direction!

The details are still vague to me! I guess God does that so I don't get too excited and run ahead, or get too overwhelmed and run away!

Anyways, this ministry thing has something to do with prayer (lots of it), helping people get set free, more prayer, a huge amount of worship, and some teaching, and some other fun/scary stuff! Of course, I can not do all of that! (I told God this, that to do such a thing, I would need a team, I've had no clear answer on that yet!)

I'm going to be having my first "official" lot of prayer ministry training in October!

Of course, I'm still seeking Him for more details! (I like to know what I'm meant to be doing, at least a loose guideline! Whilst flying by the seat of ones pants is thrilling, exhilarating and just plain scary,  it's not my most prefered mode of transport!)

So, I ask, that IF you hear Gods voice (and only IF you hear Gods voice), and IF you pray according to Gods will, please pray for me! I NEED to know Gods will, but more than that, I NEED to Gods presence! And I NEED to hear HIS voice to know what and where and when and how! While I have the go ahead, I need to have some details!

Oh, one other thing... Lately, God has had me asking Him for providence, influence and favour... He had me look up the meanings of these three words!

Providence- care or preparation in advance; foresight.
- prudent management; economy.
- the care, guardianship, and control exercised by a deity; divine direction.
- a manifestation of divine care or direction.

Influence- a power affecting a person, thing, or purse of events, especially one that operates without any direct or apparent effort.

Favour- an act of gracious kindness.
- bestow a privilege upon.
- an advantage to the benefit of someone or something.

"Come away with Me, its not to late for you, I have a plan for you, its gonna be wild, its gonna be great, its gonna be full of Me!"

May Gods blessings shower down upon you. And may you be coated in the dust of your Rabbi!

God opposes the proud

The following is a dream I had this morning. Now this dream came as a surprise to me... I dont watch tv (the antenna has been removed from the house, so no reception), and I don't really get into political stuff - so having this dream was a bit of a shocked!

I had a dream where Kevin Rudd was on a camp with a whole bunch of Spirit filled christians... It came time for sleeping, and due to lack of beds/heaters, people were encouraged to sleep close! I saw six or so guys in sleeping bags on top of a wire bed frame, and about the same number under it! This frame was shoved in the corner, so whoever was underneath at the wall was trapped! And in that position I saw Mr Rudd. Stuck and unable to move!

I believe that it means that Mr Rudd has made his judgements, whatever they are! God knows his heart. God knows his deeds. God has laid out his plan for Mr Rudd.

Because of his judgements and assumptions, he will be boxed in and unable to move. God will deal with him in a way that is personal to Mr Rudd.

From my understanding, Mr Rudd has put himself into a rather interesting predicament, but God sees him, knows him and will deal with him!

While what he said about homosexuality and whatever else is bad! I believe that we as christians are meant to pray for "personal repentance"... (meaning that Mr Rudd repents) - before he is forceably  humbled.
I feel that Gods hand is over Mr Rudd, to either humble him, or exalt him! It depends on what happens in his heart.
I also feel that Mr Rudd knows of God (like He is some being out there somewhere, with no real power). He does not yet know God! He is very close to meeting Him! May it be by repentance and not by forced humbling! We know that God opposes the proud!

May Gods blessings shower down upon you. And may you be coated in the dust of your Rabbi!

As vague as it gets...

I'm so nervous... I feel nauseous... I'm facing the possibility of something I have long prayed about... And I'm feeling like I'm walking on thin ice, or that I've somehow gone out on a limb!

Years ago, if I had have been asked if I was ready to go here, I would have overwhelmingly said yes! But now, I'm not so sure!

I think I need some confirmation on this! And maybe a little peace! Not that I'm actually going to say what it is! Where's the fun in that? 

The waiting is the biggest issue! I hate waiting! I'm not particularly good at it! Yet, in so saying, I have waited a long time for many things!

The problem I am having now is "to hope or not to hope"! I dont want to hope and be disappointed, but I want to hope and trust God. The internal battle is raging and I'm not entirely sure "who" will win!

God has been showing so much of other people, where they need ministry, where they need to simply take God at his word (which I am still, obviously, struggling with), and how much He loves them! Yet, for me, He is strangely silent - especially on this particular subject... Or maybe He is speaking, but because I'm so worked up over it, I'm not hearing Him!

There are too many variables! I just want a straight answer... "Is or is not...!" And typical me, I want this answer now, please! Although, from what I've found, God doesn't seem to work like that!

Oh, help me now! Why can't life be a little more simple!?

May Gods blessings shower down upon you. And may you be coated in the dust of your Rabbi!